Reality... or so we thought

First, let me apologize for not writing an update sooner. This past week and the week to come are pretty busy due to midterms, even though classes have been inconsistent in attendance, work load, and difficulty, i still get a little stressed at the idea of taking a test. So due to the increase in study time i have had less time to think about things of more spiritual nature, which of course interest me far more than anything academic. So in the midst of tests and school I have had little time to refine my view on any specific topic but rather i have been introduced to many new things which i will have to spend time thinking about. Therefore, i will take some time now to organize my thoughts in front of you so forgive me if this is a bit drawn out.

Last week our school was screening the documentary "What the bleep do we know?" It is a film which brings together a number of scholars to talk about the field of quantum physics. Need less to say i found it very interesting and thought provoking. even with the smoking break the Turks had to take in the middle of it. The film brings up too many topics for me to talk about everything but i will talk mostly about the ones that were of particular interest.

The first has to do with the reality we all live in. It is interesting to think that every one of us has a different reality, or at least perception of reality. So while there maybe this unfaltering true reality what we perceive of that reality is actually what makes up our own reality. But from there one can argue how "big" the differences in perception are. for instance, one person may view a table clothe at blue and the next person may see it as green, this is of course a very simple difference in reality but then how far does the metaphor go? there are many instances were people confuse their realities in a way that makes them more comfortable. like when a loved one dies, there are accounts of people not acknowledging their death and going on thinking they are alive. so i don't know, although there is a "true" reality, the reality that is true to us is the one we perceive and choose to accept. now keep in mind this is of course theory what you make of it is your own preference.

Now, without a doubt to some of you, to religion. They do speak of religion in this film and how can you not when something like the meaning of life is brought up. And they, as many sciences do, reduce religion. The idea is that religion is was built out of insecurity. We are all so insecure about our purpose of life that we created religion to make us feel like our lives have meaning in the grand scheme of things. While i do think religion gives us these things, i do not believe that these are the means to this end. With out getting to specific on history, would an insecurity last through generations of people and expand as it has? would millions of people dedicate their lives to an insecurity? now some might say "well the person dedicating their life to it would not think it an insecurity, thus they would not even recognize it as such." true, but then how do we account for the relational aspect of out faith with Christ that many of us have? What about the those times when God seems so real we cry? or laugh out loud? do we attribute these to mass hallucination? i think that would be very ignorant for anyone to do.

Next,still religion but different idea, they bring up the idea of "Christ in us" which they then turn into the idea that we are all gods, we make our own reality, we create our universe around us, we are god. This made me think of things in turns of human nature. Is it really a belief to think you are god? i think not, i say just go about your life as you would normally and you will in due time treat yourself as if you were god and then make yourself into your own god. this is worldly human nature also known as sin. but then i get caught by the idea of there being an even more natural human nature, or maybe a "higher calling" as some may put it. since we were created by God and created to live in and for Him, would it not then be human nature to do so? are we actually going against our original human nature in sinning? thinking of this now i feel i have answered my own question by recognizing the fall. at the fall of man, did our human nature change from living in God to living in sin? i suppose so, but i honestly like the more optimistic view of us being meant to live for Him.

All right i think that is enough for now. I miss you all!